I am constantly terrified
Afraid I will bring shame holy name
Trapped in fear of lack of gratitude and that I will not speak the praise your honor deserves
How comedic you must find my ignorance
How could I forget your name when it is spoken in all words
How can I have lost my way when all paths lead to you
How can I not see when all of creation is reflecting your light
So what is the joke you play on me
The prank to convince me of myself
I’m chasing my tail and yet filled with joy from the rounds of my feet
It can’t be sin to be confused when it breeds a desire so pure for you
What drop had release without tension
What story of beauty without dispar
I know I’m running to be where I already am
But the unfolding path before me breeds metaphor after metaphor for you
Exhausted and fading I quicken my pace still
And press on till collapse, then fall to the ground
And erupt in laughter, in a daze I see it so clearly now
This mind is a dance, this experience a freefall
A joke or a song? the difference means little, just play along.